Moving forward

Things did start to get easier. My mom came down twice to help me and my mother in law came over as well. I think that if I didn't have so many linger physical problems, I would have been more willing to venture out with Lucas on my own. We did try to get some good walks in before the weather turned colder. The two of us even went north to Buffalo for my aunt's retirement and 60th birthday. This was a HUGE milestone for me. I wanted to know that I could do this on my own-and I could. I felt such a sense of accomplishment making the trip without Marc.

Before I knew it, it was Thanksgiving and I was headed back to work. Boy, those three months flew by. But I was ready. I felt so isolated-I was so starved for adult contact that I became addicted to The View. I longed for the interaction those women had every day. That first day back to work felt so good. I had hoped that the first day would not have had too many stumbles and it did seem to go smoothly. When people asked if it was hard to go back, I was honest with them and said it wasn't. I needed to be back. As one of my colleagues said in regards to her daughter, we are better mothers to our children because we can go back to work. I could not agree more. We all even made the transition to day care without any major issues. Lucas is so laid back, as long as someone fed and changed him, he didn't care where he was.

I thought that I was finally getting the hang of this mom thing.