Grumpy Friday

I am grumpy today-Pitt is closed because of spring break and I have been really looking forward to having a day to myself. I had wanted to venture out, do some shopping, some reading and then greet my friends from Ohio and my parents who were all going to be here for the weekend.

Then my parents cat got sick and he isn't long for this world. They were hesitant to leave him. Then my mom came down with a chest cold and she didn't want to get us sick. So they weren't going to come down.

Then Lucas got the stomach bug. So we weren't going to send him to the Carriage House. With him being sick, I called our friends John and Stacy and said that they probably don't want to visit-I didn't want their son JT to get sick.

So there went my day to myself and my weekend plans that I have been looking forward to.

There is so much prep done before a baby is born: the nursery, the names, the showers, the birthing classes, the birth plan. But do we really plan for what our lives will be like-the lack of sleep, the lack of independence, everything is planned around feedings and naps. Right after Lucas was born, I read somewhere that women who become new moms sometimes grieve for the life they once had. When I read this, it really made sense to me. They say there are stages to overcoming grief. I don't recall them all now but I think some of them are: denial, bartering, anger, and acceptance. I think I am in the angry stage now-I am really angry that I lost today.