Missing something

I read a number of other blogs-most of them about moms dealing with very sick children. The one thing they blog freely about is their faith and how this is the rock they lean upon during their challenging times. While in high school and college I was definitely more spiritual, somewhat religious. But I haven't been active in this part of my life for a while. I have indeed become a twice a year catholic. And I have been feeling as if my life is missing something. I have questioned if going to church will help fill the void. I don't know if I will ever have the strength of faith that these women do but maybe it will help put things into perspective. Marc seems to think my unhappiness comes from our lack of sleep. Perhaps but my misery seems to be deeper than something sleep can fix. There are lots of things I am unhappy with right now: Lucas' sleep schedule, Marc and I fighting non stop, my job. Maybe I am just having my mid life crisis and don't realize it. Whatever it is, I am desperate for some relief.

A friend of mine was helping me work through somethings and she said never doubt my abilities, as it relates to being a mom. I just feel so inadequate. I wish I had her confidence.