A year ago . . .

This weekend I happened to mention to Marc that if things had been different, we would be celebrating our baby's first birthday. If I hadn't miscarried. I remember that last year I took April 27th off from work. Even though we were pregnant with Baby Bubba as Lucas was known back then, I still felt sad. It is amazing how much has happened since then. I think I will always remember that day and think, "What if . . .", What if I hadn't lost the baby? One thing I know is that we would not have Lucas, at least not the Lucas we have now. After being parents for a year would we feel better about the decisions we had made and how we were raising our child or will there always be doubt?